[ 12/14/25 9:01 PM ]

Good News! I just bought a new camera so Im hoping Im able to take some photos by the end of the month and get back to grinding away at other creative outlets, really excited to get out of the house more often and show off how beautiful this place can be because I think the pacific northwest is soooo underappreciated when it comes to it's natural beauty. Tragic how so much consctruction is taking that awya over the years so I hope my photos can at least replicate that feeling even a little bit.

But speaking of creative outlets, my youtube channel is doing pretty good! Both my Rogue/Gambit and Nightcrawler video are on their way to crack 50 thousand views and Im about to break 5,000 subs. I know in the grand scheme of Mr Beasts and all that jazz is a modest amount but I think in the short amount of time I was able to make views (around 4 months of really taking it serously) ive shown an impressive amount of growth most people wish they could reach that kinda level and hey if I wanna make it to the big leagues I had to hit it at some point anyways.

[ 12/10/25 9:37 PM ]

So this is my first entry! Basically I guess a first good entry would be explaining my thoughts on why I would even join Neocities, because I dont know there isnt much in my mind right now.

I guess while I'm happy my presence on youtube is growing at a reasonable rate, I feel little stuck creatively, I kinda have to churn out videos at a semi quick rate and focus on only specific topics such as comics and maybe sometimes movies if Im lucky, and I want a site where I can have another creative outlet without fearing of an algrorithim deciding that if anyone gets to see it. While I am of course greatful that my videos have been gaining a lot of traction, god hitting 20k in the first 2 days is genuinely crazy again I cannot express how greatful I am for that, outside of work and making videos I dont do a whole lot else. So I feel that maybe if I blog it kinda forces me to do something interesting, work model kits, photograph, ecetra so I can actually y'know write about it.

I don't know sometimes I feel that sometimes I'm not really good enough to be in this sorta race I guess, constantly churning out videos and cutting corners to make deadlines, while people do genuinely resonate with them, it's a constant in the back of my head that deep down I could always do better and the fact that at a drop of the hat that the algorithim at any moment can decide to dick me over kinda keeps me humble but also mordified. So again, I hope to use this place as a creative outlet that lets me take my time while also being a hobby That I can do from time to time because genuinely while I know I can get something done super quick I just kinda lose focus and that drive randomly and it's a constant tug of war worryying about not getting something done on time and actually doing it. I hope that makes sense and that doesn't seem like someone just bitching from a modicum of success, though let's be honest it does kinda come off that way lol. Thanks if you took the time to read this and hopefully I can continue to update this site in the mean time.